So, an incredible thing happened to me today. And since incredible things have been in short supply lately, I'm especially cherishing this.
Once upon a time, there was this girl. Woman, not girl. I met this woman in, for me, a very odd way. In a rather pathetic attempt to connect with my (ex) wife, I took dance lessons. Me, no kidding. Stop laughing. My wife was a dancer, wanted me to learn, and, well, I tried to learn. I had no idea that I was going to enjoy it, but most of that enjoyment centered around connecting with this new star.
I don't use the word 'star' lightly (get it? Lightly?). She shone. I have never in my life met a woman as sincere, honest, kind, and completely non-judgmental as she was. She was selfless, sometimes to a fault. She cared so much for others that there were no walls around her, making her easy to hurt, but I don't think she would ever change that. She empathized, not just sympathized, totally. In one word, she was absorbing. I could laugh with her or cry on her shoulder, and both were perfectly okay.
Don't think these people exist in the world? They're out there and they are rare. No matter how hard you search, you won't find them on your own. They appear in the strangest places and it's really up to us to grab them when we can. I have a few women in my life that I consider gems, but this one made a huge impression in a short amount of time. She's probably the closest person to epitomize THIS. There may be one other, but that's another secret for another time.
However, life is funny. She was putting a family together while mine crumbled. I had to move and circumstances took us apart. It's been eight years since I've seen her and I still miss her and the talks that we used to have. Believe it or not, I miss dancing because of her. She made it fun.
There must've been something aligned right today. I had a therapy session that brought me to complete and unexpected tears (sobbing, nose running, tears... awful. I don't know why women like to do that.). My therapist asked a rather simple question, but I found its weight crushing. While the tears were cathartic, it left me wanting for positivity. But I don't have someone within proximity to listen and pick me up the way I used to.
I said life is funny. Drifting in my digital world was a new message and if you had given me twenty guesses as to the sender, I would've been wrong each time. She found me again and it feels like God just gave me my childhood friend back. Not many things catch me by surprise anymore... but this one seriously got me.
There is so much to share and be said, I want to jump into it all. I think it's because I know, no matter what's struck in the past few years, that I'll find those empathetic shoulders again. And she'll have mine, always. But there will be plenty of time. If Fate wants something to happen, then it'll happen. I'm not a typical subscriber of Fate's and certainly not her biggest fan of late... but tonight she has my most sincere, "Thank you."
